Feels like a slow moving train wreck.

Where all of the pieces are circling very slowly, just waiting to collectively fall into place to make me sick. I felt it in my nose, then my throat, then my muscles, but I have managed to beat it back over a period of ten days, then I got busy and started to feel some stress and my guts went off, and then I stopped sleeping all the way through the night, and my nose threatened to start running, and my throat got noticeably more “here I am, something is off!”, but without being clinical about it. Just a vague sense that I was noticing my throat more during the day. And a silly post nasal drip cough was trying to settle in, which makes me notice the new sense of rawness to my throat even more. And I started waking up feeling just as tired as when I went to bed. But it has been days if not weeks of this, so yeah. A slow moving train wreck waiting to collapse in on itself and ruin my day, or more likely week(s). Fun times.

But what a week it was. Got loads finished. Which is always great news. Means I can start sending out invoices once I start the clock. Had a trip to the bank today (got paid! Yeah!) And then did some grocery shopping. Mundane stuff, but at least I got out of the house. Wearing a mask obviously, since I can feel something tugging at the loose threads I’ve gathered about myself in the last two weeks. Testing negative, however that makes you feel. I’ve had the two main shots, and two boosters, so I’m up to date until these new fangled shots come around. Weee!

I am looking forward to doing very little this weekend beyond watching movies on the couch and eating/drinking. Have been meditating, resting and exercising more to stave off whatever it is that’s been seeping in around the edges lately. Vitamins, more fresh water, fresh air, the whole works. Positivity and reframing obstacles seems to help lessen the weight and stress. But I can only do so much.

The kids are both in three activities after school each week. I think three is too many. Two was great. But now the schedules are all jumbled and the kids are over tired and moody. But someone keeps pushing for the kids to do more & more stuff in an attempt to make up for the loss during Covid. I don’t think the kids feel that way. Now it’s just stressors and personnel shuffling all week long. It’s going to crash and burn at some point. Hopefully we can scale back to two after Christmas. Or figure out that the kids really love it all and keep it going with fewer fights and tantrums about driving, hunger or supposed thirst. We’ll see how it all turns out.

Yeah – so Friday huh? Nice to be here, it was a bit of a rough ride to get here, but we made it, safe & sound. Hats off to Larry, and bottoms up! Ciao Bella!