Compulsion? A better outlet than drinking, or a wake n’ bake session. A sense of accomplishment after I have completed at least one task in a day. It’s not a literary or academic practice. Just something to do. Hell I’ve made, an as of yet unpaid $.14 cents USD on ads served over the last ten years so there is that building ever so slowly in the back ground. I got my two short story collections off my chest, out of my head, and on to paper, so that satiated my desire for a novel’s worth of material. All together both books approach 200,000 words, so I’m cool with that. I have my children’s book underway. It’s all written, and put on the pages, ready for my illustrations to capture the vibe of the moment. I did go back and look at it recently, and I need to do 90% of the illustrations again, as they don’t feel right – yet. I do like three of them for sure, a potential fourth is ok, but all the rest should be scrapped and started from scratch. I’m under no deadline, so that works for me.
I’m also on a 151 day streak with Reddit, and I do weekly gaming points gathering, so the gamification of compulsion keeps me doing stuff besides going back to bed, or shopping and building consumer debt. Diablo 4 is helping to keep me entertained as of late. I try to keep that to 60 – 90 minutes a day, or else my eyes hurt, and my neck gets sore.
I have household duties to eat up my downtime in between paid jobs too. Lots of cleaning, laundry, shopping, dishes, floors, and bathroom tasks to keep a guy from going stir crazy. Leaves and grass, and the garden when it’s warm, and snow & ice control when it gets cold. Decorating for Halloween, Christmas and St Valentine’s Day to occupy the cold weather season with a touch of colour.
And of course the purging of textiles, goods, and “stuff”. With Christmas coming, and yet another birthday just around the corner the kids should clear out more toys to make way for new stuff. Same with their closets, and clothing. It’s a never ending cycle of rinse and repeat. I suppose if I get bored of all that I can just take a nap, or go back to bed. I could try a part time job if need be too. I just don’t know doing what exactly? Or where? I get this urge every couple of months when I have a longer than usual slow period. Then work picks up by 1000% and I think to myself, boy am I glad I don’t have to factor in a part time job schedule into all of this. Endlessly on repeat.
However, should I lose any more clients, or have them bought out and the work brought in house under their own umbrella, I will definitely have to find a part time solution. Just not yet. Or a full time solution, if I had to. It just has to pay more after all the additional child care costs get factored in. Before, and after school care, babysitting until 8pm when I get home. Also a maid service to clean the house, and a dog walker/day care for the puppy. It all adds up. The cost of commuting (gas, parking, transit, wear & tear on a vehicle). The required salary would be prohibitive to all but the most demanding of high end clients. I save all those costs by working at home, and watching the kids/dog/house hold myself.
If I could find a mid sized brewery near by that needed my expertise I’d jump on it, but it would need to be 10-15 mins away max, and not need me on site every single day, or for more than a few hours at a time. Hard wish to fulfill these days.
Yeah, so writing a bunch. I think it comes mostly from getting carried away, writing rants, and diatribes about the weather or things that upset me. Not so much a compulsion after all then is it. I could stop, but that former 800 plus day streak calls out to me, mocking me. You got so close to 1,000 and fixing a day upload cost you the high score! BAH!
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