There’s a moon out tonight.

And the photos just don’t do it justice.

What I need to figure out is how to take a photo of the moon through a telescope so that I can capture clearer, crisper, and fuller images of it when it looks so big in the sky.

We went out on the water to go watch for shooting stars in the weeks long meteor shower. We were fortunate enough to all see one very large, and bright streak as a group. A few others caught a few smaller ones off in the distance where I wasn’t looking. Big sky you see, can’t look every which way at once. If I see one I continue to look that direction, but that doesn’t always work like I think it should.

It can also be a long wait in between visible streaks so I did not manage to capture any on film. No video of them skipping over the atmosphere either. If I could do a lengthy time lapse over the lake you might see something cool. As it currently stands I do not know how to do that with my phone. I should learn though, could come in handy.

Here we are on a Tuesday in mid August. The summer break is drawing to a close with each passing day. My wife will be back to work in about two weeks time. The girls back to school in three. And like that, snap! Our jam packed schedules will reappear and it’ll be a race to get to all of our kids programming each afternoon, and evening during the week.

On the plus side I will be back to climbing twice a week once more! I have continued to train my grip strength. Started by struggling with 50lbs, and I’m not edging out of 125lbs towards the 150lbs. My goal is to reach 250lbs, so that if I can lose weight by being more active, my grip can hold at least 55lbs more than I weigh. Which should enable me to use smaller finger holds, or stay on more challenging routes for longer. That’s the plan. Weak shoulders, and poor hip mobility need to be worked on too, but I have the grip trainers, so I’m leading with that first. I haven’t been totally lacking on my hips or shoulders. I have taken up push ups once more, and in the pool/lake I do hip stretching exercises, and leg raises to try and maintain what little ability I built up over the last ten months of climbing.

I did pivot to golf briefly during the summer. We plan to get out next week for 18 holes with a couple friends. I bought inexpensive golf shoes with spikes. And replaced my loud mouth pants with a new grey pair that fits my newly fat self. No chance I can get into a 33 W pair of pants without considerable weight loss. I don’t have the time to lose 30lbs and three inches off my waistline by next week. I don’t fancy an exercise heavy week fueled by laxatives, and water intake reduction to achieve it either. I’m not wrestling collegiately anymore. I don’t run laps in garbage bags after not eating for three days just to make an arbitrary weight. Those days are o-ver! Gone. Bye-bye.

Hosting a tween sleepover for my daughter’s and their cousin means…

Nobody goes to sleep, like, ever! Too much pent up energy, and excitement about everything humanly possible. They did some water sports, ate pizza, watched movies, ate candy, ate popcorn, did face masks, and then proceeded to talk animatedly for the next six straight hours. I could still hear them talking close to midnight last night. It was fun for all ages — apparently. Kids are all smiles this morning.

Here we are back to Monday. May you have a good morning. Many pleasant returns.

Fefe Dobson making the musical circuit rounds again.

She made an appearance at the Stouffville Ribfest last night over on the band shell at Memorial Park. We took the kids there for it. Lots of teens. So many teens. Full 50% of those present must have been teenagers by my lazy estimate. It’s the first proper concert the kids have gone to. They liked it. We also got away from the speakers to play in the park, but they didn’t immediately ask to go home, and the youngest whom is noise averse (unless she’s the one making said noise) was ok for the most part. It was a balmy 32°C at 9:00 pm, plus the humidex so it was a sticky evening to be out and about. We even ran into friends of our own, which was a pleasant surprise.

My two goons.

Having a good, old fashioned closet clear out.

Undersized jerseys, pants, sweaters, t-shirts, and even fancy socks that I no longer need,all going out by way of donations tomorrow, care of the diabetes people.  A few shorts, and other such items all ready to fly off my shelves, hangers, and drawers because most of it is stuff I have a.) never worn, or b.) have not worn in the last decade, or c.) can no longer wear because I have gained too much weight and medium shirts & sweaters are not going to fit, and there is zero chance I can wear a size 30 through 33 waist pants unless my life totally falls apart unexpectedly. My 205lb life can’t do anything less than a 34 W at best. More like 35’s and 36’s at this point. I had kept some pants as an aspirational goal, but it seems more and more unlikely given hard hard I have to work to drop 8-10 pounds over the course of a month, versus gaining it back with an over indulgent week of vacation. Going to need a lifestyle change at this point.

Getting rid of unneeded clothes is for the best. Someone else might get the benefit from it, that me hoarding stuff in the closet isn’t going to accomplish. Best of luck to you! Four bags full! Yowza. Who’d a thunk we still had that much left in our closets. I certainly didn’t think I still had that many articles left over. Turns out I collect t-shirts and sweaters like they are going out of style. Just don’t check my drawers at the cottage because you’ll find a dresser full of even more I just couldn’t bear to get rid of. I could wear a T-shirt a day and go a month before I had to wash a t-shirt up north. Ha! Now I have at least five pairs of pants, and at least three sweaters. I’m golden. Add in the frayed boxers I snuck up there along with some warm socks and I have an entire wardrobe of old, musty, cottage core clothes. If I had any old Campus Crew sweaters I’d fit right in, like I knew what I was doing!

I’m channeling Marie Kondo more and more as of late. Still have a long way to go in this basement alone! Yikes. Two steps forward, and one step back it feels like. I had a massive CD purge last year where I got rid of 75-100 universal label artists’CDs that were unopened, but the jewel case had been intentionally damaged by the label. They could go out as freebies or swag, but weren’t fit for resale. That sort of thing. I also finally broke down and got rid of some brewery branded gear I received from an old job 10-15 years ago. Has taken its sweet time to finally come around to be able to let that stuff go. Nostalgia has kept a hard hold on my shelf space, and closet. I’m looking long and hard at getting rid of the beer signage I have been holding on to since 2008. I can’t really show it in my portfolio due to the size, and some of it being die cut means it is an irregular shape. If I had made the garage a bar instead of a wood shop it would go great in there! Beer related, and all that you know.

Hope your Saturday has been as productive,or relaxing as you’d hoped it would be.

I’m going to qualify my answer to most questions with a “well that depends on…”

And I think that’s glorious, because nuance and understanding of complexity are good skills to have. Sure it’s great to be able to distill larger thoughts down to the barest of bones, and learn to be concise, sure, certainly, no question. But, and here’s the zinger, sometimes answers to seemingly simple questions aren’t so simple because it depends on various factors that you might be wishful thinking about, or attempting to disregard, or are hoping to overlook, with a view to applying blame when the outcome isn’t what you desire. So, yeah — complexity, it’s a thing you have to deal with. I mean I hate action paralysis due to too many options, or fear of unforeseen variables, but in a good chunk of cases you do need to think beyond your lived experiences to see what sort of obstacles might rear their ugly head when you take a plan of action. Just saying. Nuance, it’s a thing you should embrace where you can.

Saturday is here, and I’ve got work for Monday, it’s all good baby yeah. I’m happy. In this day & age, work commitments are a good thing. In other news my golf shoes arrived and brought a rain storm with them. Not a tonne of precipitation but enough to turn the cardboard box into mush. My pumpkins needed it. I have pants coming later today because one of my two pairs absolutely will not fit me, by a solid two-three inches of belly. Not my proudest moment. I’ve been exercising my grip strength, and doing push ups, and I eventually went for a 35 minute run on the elliptical, but without climbing twice a week I’ve put on 8 lbs or more since the end of June. Boo! Boo-urns I say. I snacked quite a bit this summer. I started out strong with the swimming, but the bugs up north were nasty in July and I stayed in out of the heat waves a whole lot. Sat down and ate junk. This summer body is jello moulds shaped. D’oh!

Going to set up a golf day for the week after this one coming. Maybe a good walk, and a whole lot of swinging will help me out a bunch. Stay healthy out there. Ciao Bella!

Do you all remember that Rebecca Black tune “Friday Friday”?

Mainly because it was terrible, and because she was a nepo baby with zero talent, and she was something like twelve years old at the time with no real reason to be making music, or music videos. We all recall the awkward back seat arm roll wave combo she did off beats 1 & 3. Too good y’all. Nice. Chef’s kiss!

I say that because, today of all days is Friday mutha fuqqa! And it’s getting hotter, and we are going beyond two weeks with no rain. It’s scorched earth out here folks. Withered leaves, dropping leaves, and tinder dry twigs for lawns. It’s a ghastly sight to behold. I fear for my over laden fruit trees. Those apples are small and dropping like malformed flies. Pity.

I had a weird dream that I was interviewing for my last job from ten years ago, and they were super proud to offer me the same wage I left at, and I was so disappointed. Killed the whole vibe. Which is weird I know. But things were really cooking, and I was all excited, and then I just stopped dead. At least I haven’t dreamt about being late to class, or sleeping through an exam in a really long time.

I also know that I am old because I no longer yearn to head back to university when September rolls around either. That desire took quite so time to get over. Longer than I’d care to admit. If I had lots of money I would go back to school, and take classes about stuff I’m interested in. Hands on with design,  ceramics, painting, sculpting, metal working, pottery, life drawing, animation, wood working. So many things I would like to brush up on, or get to the next level with. Not a reinvention of myself, but a further exploration of what I already enjoy. Maybe even an intro to manual machining, like milling and lathe work. Plus a stop off at fabrication too. Would be a tonne of fun, I think.

This short week has felt very long, extraordinarily long. Ciao Bella!

I thought that it would go a bit differently.

Having spent a good long while trying to suss out a fun new first micro short story for my interconnected series, I thought it was going to trigger a cascade of new ideas, or plot points that I could explore. Instead I struggled to capture what I wanted to say in any meaningful way, and that’s about it. No new material made itself apparent. Which sucks. On the upside it’s been read only once by someone other than myself, so I don’t feel all that terrible that I cannot seem to follow it up, or fill in any part of the extended universe around it. No harm, no foul I guess. I really thought that by scratching that itch, and doing the work to bring this lucid day dream to the written page that I might find a new source of inspiration to tap into. Maybe I need to find some autobiographical micro shorts to write about to really open myself up more. I am particularly more guarded now. Not sure if the Covid infections from previous years has anything to do with that. Neurological rewiring, and brain fog after effects. I don’t know. I do know that I have struggled to partake in a bunch of my old hobbies. Seems like a rich vein to explore if I feel like being more open about it.

Nevertheless it is Thursday, we are well into August, and Summer Break 2025 is more than half way done. The kids have done a fair amount of reading, running, and swimming. I am trying to organize a second round of eighteen holes of golf with my wife, and a couple friends. Given the lack of rain I think we might have the bonus of a higher than usual carry from bounces on the fairway. Not a fan of a serious run on green, but beggars can’t be choosers, right? I hope it materializes for us all. I don’t day drink, but I do like to venture out in a zig zag across a golf course every now & again. At best it’s all four of us, and second best it’s just my wife and I. I think it’ll be a lot of fun. I’m not all that serious about it. Best ball, scramble, three puts, worm burners, I’m there for it all baby!

I suppose in September I could start to explore some executive 9 hole courses nearby, as a four hour jaunt seems a little self indulgent for just me. Shank enough balls into the woods and I’ll get bored pretty quickly. I could just venture over to the driving range, and play mini putt afterwards. Samesies! Ha.

Hope you are all being safe this summer. I hope to see everyone back in the school yard come September 2nd, 2025. Ciao Bella!

If I had my way…

I could surely solve the world’s problems, and totally not become a power mad tyrant, I swear! I could house, and clothe people, feed them even. I’d be so good to you baby. Just gimme a chance. I could do so much good with even just a Billion dollars under my belt, and at my finger tips. I could save so many of us,  it would be damn near miraculous. I believe in me, don’t you? Don’t you want to be safe, and free, and more prosperous than ever before? Come over here, get under my covers, succumb to my warm tone, and inviting charms. Give me everything and I swear to you you’ll not live to regret it. I promise.

That, and other such things take up my Wednesday morning thoughts as of late. We have seen no rain going on fourteen or fifteen days straight now, and I fear for both the state of my lawn, for wildlife, and for my trees & flowers. I can only imagine how hard packed like concrete my soul is currently. Not going to play football on there until we have a day of steady rains to soften it all up. No sense getting a concussion from hitting the ground after a tackle — ouch. Take most of the skin off a kneecap or thigh too. Road rash from our brown, crispy lawn is just as bad. Still stings when you step into the shower!

Next week I have family coming to visit for a few days so I’m sure work will get very busy then, but just for those couple of days, and no others. Ha. That’s always the way of things as a freelancer. Can’t say no, just make it work! And you know what, my not being a surgeon, or a mission critical portion of any body’s operation means I have a lot of freedom around work. That’s a good thing. Means flexibility, and a certain level of autonomy that I have grown accustomed to. Hard to beat those perks!

What’s a little bit of volatility when you have all of these perks! Freelancing isn’t for a weak stomach. Also being able to budget well, and manage your time is a must. It’s not the life for someone whom has difficulty starting things on their own. I’m lack lustre at networking, and I hate soliciting for work with new clientele, so I could step up in that arena if I’m being honest with myself. I’ve done well for myself with word of mouth, and repeat customers, and brand management team members going elsewhere and coming back to me with new work. I’m loathe to meddle with what has worked well for the last few years, but I do know I have to continue to adapt or I will fade away. Best to do something on my own terms, and own it!

Jostling for position.

Trying to keep my feet while the boat sways heavily in the waves, as I feel in the wakeboard tow rope. Coming around to pick up my eldest daughter as an interloper got too close causing massive waves which caused her to fall. She’s all good though. All smiles after her epic bail out. Not her fault. This was her first outing on the wakeboard since last October. No harm in losing your feet after a heavy wake takes you out with some humongous waves. She has managed to get up & out of the water rather effortlessly after each stop and start. Good times. I just need to center my weight to weather the bucking boat platform on all these waves, turns, and evasive maneuvers! Ha. I’m getting better at throwing the rope out farther from the boat too. To much more of that bobbing up and down and I might get seasick though.

Welcome to Tuesday everybody.

“When I completed my…

Training back at the academy on Tourus station about thirty years ago this job used to be fun”. She mutters to herself aloud, while reaching for a fresh bulb of black coffee, sat on a little dispenser above her console. The heat from the instant bulb bringing feeling back into her clammy hands. Her remarks echoing off the empty banks of machines surrounding her station in the middle of the long cold room. Gilda, the air traffic controller on shift is hunched over a bank of displays watching a dizzying array of pale green blips jostle across several CRT tv screens all at arm’s length. It’s a slow moving dot matrix puzzle. Leaning away from the console, her feet firmly tucked into the padded stirrups underneath so that she won’t float out of position in the low gravity field she occupies, an audible crack emanates from her hunched spine. With a brief moan of relief Gilda leans back towards her console and the many thousands of cargo vessels she is responsible for keeping track of.

“I can’t believe that when I started I only had to follow three vessels! Three!” She barks in a hoarse laughter. The righteous indignation present in her commanding voice. Looking at the cavernous space around her console with a sweeping glance, like she used to do when it was full of other people. Back when she could catch another’s eye, and they could both enjoy one another’s plight within the Company. “Then the company decided it was too expensive to assign individual ships to a traffic controller as a parcel, they moved over to one controller one entire route.” Gilda loves to talk out loud, because there is nobody to hear her, so she has gotten pretty good at delivering her daily diatribe with gusto. With her best performative gestures she continues. “Now back then, routes might have had only ten or twelve ships flying the same path, just days apart. The work load for us got harder, for sure, but it was manageable” she pouts. Gilda loves to bemoan the state of her job now that much of what she was trained to do has become automated.

Her role was to know where every ship was under her care. That far flung planet in desperate need of parts or it will collapse, yeah they’d ping Gilda, and she’d know where on the route the vessel was within seconds. If they’d taken evasive maneuvers, she’d know and would log it, and all parties would be notified same day. But with the consolidation of traffic controllers, and the expansion of traffic she personally had to watch, that role got pushed onto automation. Now the Company has a separate system that gets pinged, and if the same vessel names comes up time and again, even if it’s for different reasons, as soon as one question about it gets answered the Company system deletes all tickets regarding further questions about said vessel. It’s great for throughout stats, but terrible if you have multiple things you needed to know, or communicate. But that’s Company life, right. Somebody gets a bonus for tickets logged, they just say that all queries were completed. One answer fits all folks!

It’s also the reason why all earth ships have these long ridiculous sounding names, so that no two get mixed up. Pretty hard to get two with the same name when the cargo vessels get called “Clarice with the sheeps” or “Edgar, Allen and Poe” or something truly weird like “The Pauly Shore Wheezing of the Juice“. Absolutely bizarre names. Very distinct monikers that meant when a ship got pinged for its whereabouts, or a status update, the answer that came back, promptly at that, was correct. It virtually eliminated transposed numbers or letters for ship names. Hard to believe but back in the day they used just VIN numbers to identity ships. Who cares if eights, A’s, and zeros or O’s look the same on these CRT tv screens. That was when we tried to be all covert about shipping and shit. Lots of folks died because of that. Like, a lot a lot. Planets sunk into civil wars because they were given information in error about a ship not even in their system. A truly terrible time to be alive. A whole colony gone to war killing themselves over scarce resources, just to have the usual ship show up ten days later and 95% of the colony dead, or dying. It was a mess. I’m sure some one still got their bonuses though, right.

But today with the longer names, that doesn’t happen. Instead we have air traffic controller burn out. We have corporate greed to thank for that Gilda mutters to the vast but empty room. It’s not entirely silent in the cavernous expanse she calls operations. It’s one of six spaces on this far flung station orbiting some random gas giant, about four hundred meters across, and six hundred deep. What used to be filled by three overlapping eight hour shifts worth of people, is now jammed up with server banks, cold blinking lights, squeaky exhaust fans, the trickle from water cooling towers, and row upon row of dials, switches and toggles. None of which Gilda knows how to service, or maintain. Now for shift three, it is just her. She’s paid to watch multiple screens full of slow moving pale green dots. Every few seconds those blips move just a hair. It’s her job to notice if one of those blips should wink out. That means death. Total annihilation of a vessel. Black box with virtually indestructible transponder gone up in flames. Unlikely, but it happens. If an engine gets punctured, or a seal breaks and the living, breathing, volatility of a dead star erupts from out of containment, it’s a sure fire way to eliminate an entire cargo vessel, the occupants, contents and engine contained within.

Now we humans like to think of engines as merely machinery with moving parts that can be switched on and off at will. But with the size and complexity of these cargo vessels traveling billions of miles round trip month after month, they are a little unwieldy. You don’t just shut down an entire ship. Once you light an engine and trap all that energy, it stays on until its ultimate heat death from machine failure, decades or possibly centuries after it was awoken. The rigmarole the Company has to go through in order to create a new vessel these days in non trivial. It’s akin to directing the energy from a dying star into a containment space no larger than a couples transport berth on Tourus station. The action it takes to bring a ship to life is positively cataclysmic. So more often than not Gilda, and the few others left that do her job on alternate shifts have only ever seen ships data wink out of existence. Not once have they ever seen a presumed dead ship turn back on. That is, until just now.

“What the fuck?” Gilda exclaims in shock. Her hands flying across her console. With a few button presses she hits record on the displays, and rolls back the counter for the clock, and loops it to repeat over and over again. A capture of just a few seconds of screen time. Gilda transfers the few moments of display data over to the Company archives for further investigation. An until now unheard of event, right there, bottom left corner of her display, a lone pale green blip, that was once empty space one second, is a new vibrant green dot. Blinking life where there was only emptiness a moment ago.

Inside the vast array of data banks a previously scrubbed name sets off all sorts of alarms. This data gets shunted immediately to a private data center while the previously heavily redacted name “The Dirty Starling” flashes urgently. All hell breaks loose.

GHOST OF THE DIRTY STARLING: REBIRTH.  Part 1

**Stay tuned for more adventures in the interconnected space short stories universe of The Dirty Starling.**