The always coveted SNOW-DAY!

although I have decided to keep my kids home from school for one extra week before making a final decision on elearning – (as a semi permanent fixture in our home. At least until Family Day or March Break of this year). We do still have the joy of waking up to a Snow Day! With approximately nineteen inches or 50+ centimeters of snow to come throughout the day today. We will hunker down and watch movies while snuggled in our blankets. Glad we enjoyed a weekend of ice skating and snowmobilng in minus twenty four degree weather recently. Lots of outdoor time in the bright beautiful sun shine. Today any outdoor time we have will be devoted to shoveling. I forsee three shoveling sessions in my near future. Wish I’d had followed through and bought a snow blower in the off season. My back will not forget this transgression any time soon. Grab the Voltaren!

A picture for context.

About 1/3 of what is to come today.

Anatomy of a scene.

It came to me yesterday almost exactly how it played out in real life beat for beat. I followed my FIL to his shop in an open side by side in minus twenty six degree Celsius weather, to go and get the Bobcat. The seat was ice cold, the controls were frigid to the touch, and the engine struggled to start without the engine block heater having run, or the prime pump heater turning on. As I was wiping down the front window to be able to see through it from inside the dark shop. Frost was building up on the inside of the glass as I sat there breathing in the bitterly cold air. I thought, this is a good experience to capture as is, and show some of the hardship and grit the black ops folks go through living in perpetual darkness and cold out by Pluto. The rodent issue was a real problem for us when we renovated our house several years ago. You rush around working focusing on big stuff, only to later take a closer look and start to see signs of the pests along the edges of base boards and under objects you haven’t moved in a while.

That is the sort of day dream, lived experience I need in order to write something that feels worth while. Since I’m no rocket buff, and don’t follow math and such, I try to focus my science-fiction on the people involved rather than the actual science of living and working, and fighting in outer space.

That’s a little insight into my writing and let us say “research” for any given chapter in my interconnected series. Thanks for following along.

“Oh lord that’s cold.”

“Sweet baby lord Jesus that’s fucking cold. Cold, cold, cold, cold – cold. God damn!” Exclaims the shuttle pilot in a fit of rage as he twists knobs, flips switches and toggles back and forth between banks of dials and indicators. The frosty fog of exhalation puffed out by the pilot is condensing quickly upon the frigid surfaces of the tiny space. The cramped cockpit of the shuttle is full of storage bins as the craft has been sitting in the unheated cargo bay waiting for a chance to get un-crated. The six inch thick concrete glass bubble that engulfs the free floating gimbaled pilots chair is scarred with frost patterns. Cris crossed with finger scrapes as the angry man tries to get a series of small view ports through the icy crust with halfway decent visibility. The dark cargo hold, and the dim running lights on his dash board makes for a difficult systems check.

“Did you cock suckers seriously not turn on the cabin heater yet? How the fuck am I supposed to operate the shuttle if I have to battle frost bite in sub zero temperatures!” Shouts the stout pilot from his crispy, cold worn leather chair. He’s flipping switches and running his own extended operations check list without turning to look over his shoulders at the two other men of team ETA huddled in the back of the seating compartment. “You heard the Doctor, we had six hours to shit, shower and shave. That cabin heater wreaks havoc with the power output on a dry run start up of a shuttle this size. Anything not nominal would potentially add extra time and we’d get spaced for fucking things up before we start. You want to end up in the surgical bay? Because I fucking don’t man. We all had our station orientation. We all ignore more than we can ever explain to god.” Quips the man seated in the rear compartment off to the pilots left. The man seated to the right is busy bolting additional instrument panels to the bulkheads within arms reach of his seat. Clipping netting to hooks mounted across the wall, and shifting tools and cargo from padded bin to padded bin. The crew of team ETA are running nine men short of their usual personnel compliment, and are thus trying to cover off more than their usual share of prepping the shuttle for launch.

The nine members are doing the exterior checks, their muffled discussions and fits of laughter can be heard inside in small bursts. The hiss and sizzle of welding with the smell of ozone wafts in the open cargo bay doors to the rear. The huge cavernous loading dock is bustling with machines and industrial noise. The odour of burnt lubricant hangs thickly in the air. A haze of blue oily smoke drifts limply in the poorly circulated air. Fumes and off gassing chemicals permeate the space. An overhead speaker crackles to life with an ear splitting shriek of feedback. “Attention – away teams ETA and Theta you have T-minus ninety minutes until scheduled departure. All non-combat team members should make their way to a safe location behind the environmental bulk heads on no less than sixty minutes. Crews will bolt combat teams into their shuttle at T-minus ten minutes to deployment.”

A heavy banging sounds on the concrete glass of the cockpit. A series of orange gloved thumbs up are flashed to the pilot. The last few systems checks are glowing nominal on the display board, with the last few toggles switched over to operational. The pilot has strapped himself into his seat, and adjusted his head rest, arm rests and his foot stool. All items are a part of my gyroscopic pilots chair, keeping the pilot oriented along the elliptical plane of the solar system regardless of gravity status onboard the small ship.

The small speaker on the pilots chair begins to hum as the launch clock begins to count down from t-minus five minutes. The pilots ungloved hand reaches over head to another control board. The last thing he needs to do is remove a black and yellow cover from the launch toggle and the crew with deploy out of the bottom of the drop shoot launch tubes. Once he’s given the signal he will toggle the switch and the ship stationed on a set of two arms will fold ninety degrees down through an opening in the cargo bay floors and the rockets will fire as they drop out the bottom of the massive rock that black ops base UB313 is built into. With the closing seconds of the countdown something small and black falls onto the pilots face. Distracted for only a second the pilot looks down to his lap to see the tiny black rock. Moving to pick it up with his fingers it squishes between his thumb and forefinger. “Mouse shit? What the fuck?” Mutters the pilot.

“Ten, nine, eight, seven, six …. ” – with the pause at five the pilot takes the briefest look around the cabin of the shuttle which now shows the faintest of signs of the rodents presence. Knowing what meager signs to look for the pilot can see the soft chew marks from rodent teeth on the plastic seals and cloth coverings. “… four, three, two, one… we are go for launch. God speed gentlemen.”

From the inky depths of space outside base UB313 two massive streaks of propellant can be seen glinting in the soft haze of the distant sun, as the two small combat ships careen out of their launch tubes simultaneously.

Part Seven: Ghost of the Dirty Starling.

Here’s a blue sky for you.

Have some thinking to do on the story front today, and possibly tomorrow. I managed to tie three threads together loosely, and now I need to get into some action set pieces and corporate intrigue. Both of which require a fair amount of prior planning on my part. For fight sequences I usually break out some action figures to try to keep track of where characters are in relation to one another. If I had the time and resources I’d build a miniature set and act it out in cardboard and plastic and talk it aloud into a tape recorder to transcribe/edit later. But as it stands I just smash toys together or put objects on a table top to help myself out a bit. The cup has lune of sight on the fork, while the spoon spins downward in a tight spiral. Blah, blah blah.

As I was saying, lots to think about so here is a lovely blue sky image. Take good care of yourselves – or not. Up to you where applicable.

Time.

What is time. What has time to do with me. I’ve slept adrift in the blank depths of the cosmos. Time has no meaning here. I sense in the far reaches of my being that at one point time was everything. Now it is nothing. What is time to the dead and crumbling. The passing of dust into matter back to dust once more. On and on at scales so grand and so minute as to be virtually meaningless to me – to me or to us. Am I me or are we us now. I was man, then dead, now reborn as an other. A collective – a hive mind? No, still singular but fractured. As though the dust motes falling from my body retained the essence of me and thought, action and will.

Aboard the decrepit vessel there was once a man and his trusty educational bot. They survived tragedy, insanity and isolation for many decades together. That was until the human man’s body began to degrade and fail him. As a last ditch measure the edu bot laid that old withered man gently down into a med pod and with manual over ride after manual over ride poured billions of Nano bots into his body. Over the passage of centuries the limp desiccated body shifted and writhed as treatment after treatment flooded his organs and tissues to replace him with inorganic machine based life. To the wonderment of only the vaguest stars in the sky he awoke with a sputtered gasp. He promptly fell into the icy frost grip of despair.

For millenia this thing walked the crumbling halls of his ship looking for a sign of where he was or what he is. All the while dropping parts of himself about the vessel. Living, replicating, intelligent specks of himself that fed upon the ship and in turn reshaping, rebuilding it in his image. Every exhalation, bowel movement or cough delivered more of himself unto the ship, bringing it closer to himself. Unbeknownst to this fragile mind. The wandering lost soul was expanding his consciousness at a geometric rate.

It was a cool Thursday morning in autumn when the machine made man felt the ship shudder under his feet. What had he been thinking about? Direction, aim, trajectory – the answer was on the tip of his tongue but would not come. Lifting his arms up as though gliding on the air current and turning in a downward spiral to his right, he was immediately swept from his feet and pulled to the left wall in a steep bank as though the ship were in a suicide dive. Scared witless he screamed out and the vessel righted itself immediately. Thinking aloud to do a similar move but upwards and to the left, he felt his feet lift from the ground as he came to rest upon the lower right portion of the hallway floor.

Was it centuries, millenia or merely decades before the man come ship found itself seeking out and transporting itself through wormholes. Dimensions, time, the fabric of space itself was no obstacle for the amalgam once known as Kelvin. In the blink of an eye, the flash of a dying star, the waves of disrupted gravity Kelvin crossed both the known and the unknowable.

What is time to something that belongs to the ice cold dread of the depths of space, that which lingers in the interstitial spaces between things.

Somewhere a beacon is triggered as a momentous build up of energy cackles out of the ether. With a blast of improbable energy a lone signal careens off through the galaxy, bouncing off of signal repeaters and dishes until an analog bulb of rusty orange pops to life on a decades old communications terminal on a science vessel named The Dirty Starling.

Part Six: Ghost of the Dirty Starling.

Planning with mind games.

A good chunk of my process for writing creative short stories is day dreaming as much of the story before hand prior to writing it all down. The more time I spend lurking around in a coherent story the better the written work tends to be, or at least I tend to veer off on strange tangents a lot less. However finding the time to ruminate in my own head uninterrupted is increasingly difficult. More over once I carve out the time to do so I am more often than not drawing a blank on how to progress the story line. I know the broad strokes of where I want to go, and roughly how to get there, but I am unable to imagine it, to walk around in it, to inhabit it. Most likely two years of stress and anxiety about Covid is tamping down the creative side of me. My kids are now older and require a different amount, and different kinds of attention than they did in 2020.

One thing I can do to help calm myself or juice up my creativity is find photos that have an interesting play of light in them. I like striking contrast and orange late evening or morning light. It’s short and fleeting but makes a statement. Something like this:

30 days straight of writing

And what have I learned? That my vocabulary is stunted at best when i’m commiting thoughts to paper while writing in the moment. I have to rewrite entire sentences and sometimes paragraphs because that epic word on the tip of my tongue can’t be found and the flow is off without that very specific turn of phrase. Only to later come up with it and have to back track and edit that section a third time. Also the thought of having to slog through an action / dialogue/ detail heavy portion of my story will stop me clean in my tracks and I will put the writing off until later in the day, or settle for a silly inane blog post with a photo instead.

Book two is closing in on 10,000 words so I am thankful for that. I do worry that I am retreading too much old ground, or that I aim to throw in plot twists or subvert tropes for the general sake of doing so. I do believe that 2020 was a very depressing and isolating year, and as such my writing had more gravitas behind it. Feels like I’m chasing a feeling rather than excising something deep from within. In all honesty it took me such a long time to find a suitable thread to follow for the second portion of short stories in my overarching series that I think I might just be nervous it’s not as exciting or as enjoyable as the first book.

Something else that I have had to relearn is that writing about anything is just as good as writing continually about one specific train of thought. Adding in some one shot funny bits is rather cathartic when the idea around a four thousand word chapter seems too daunting a task.

Sirens have begun to blare in the common spaces of the dormitory…

And all other common spaces aboard the UB313 dark site base. Strobing orange and blue lights spin with reckless abandon upon every flat surface alerting everyone to the mission at hand. The blisteringly cold air inside the base has a crisp tension to it now. The taught faces on everyone who passes along the gangways and in the halls makes the fear and excitement most palpable.

The away teams Eta & Theta have scrambled to their muster stations, and are reading their data packets in preparation for their impending departure. No direct route, just an order to get out to Lagrange point five out beyond Pluto / Charon and await further instructions there. The away teams are running at one third man power, and they have orders to add in the lost crew members weight in additional fuel cells or hard uranium pellets.

Looks as though the rosters were drawn at random within each team, as the crew compliments differ between Eta & Theta. One team appears to be all command, and the other all various types of grunts. No idea if the point is to work in tandem or to be isolated in obtaining the asset – whatever it is.

Muffled shouts and clanking of boots and machine parts on the rough metal grates makes it hard to think. Their are service vehicles and lift trucks going about their business as usual, and the machine shop people are busy retrofitting anything they can get their hands on. The screech and rattle of unbalanced loads in the lathes and cnc’s is nearly deafening. The light in here is dim, and the smell of acrid smoke and burning lubricants permeates the air. Air quality on UB313 is usually shit at the best of time, add propane engines, and burnt lubricants to that, and a million other solvents and you have the quality toxic cloud of air that we call home. Hanging down from the rough hewn rock ceilings are the under powered exhaust vents, miles of pipes and cables all tied together and mounted off of swinging all too thin chains. It really looks like a last ditch attempt to make the best of a bad situation. You’d be hard pressed to know this base has been operational for several hundred standard years. The hard worn and battered baffles that are up on ceiling swing wildly under the chaotic air currents and draughts.

The closely knit teams are already communicating with hand signals or on our closed circuit sub-vocal channels. Sounds like we stand to make a pretty good chunk of cash if we pull this daring heist off successfully. Will be left to rot in the surgical bay at the hands of the beast should we fail. The check lists for deployment are hours long and deeply intricate. Call from upstairs says be ready to drop in six hours time. So much to do, so little time.

All around the drop ships, the ground crews are scrambling to check off multiple items at a time. Oil slicked hands drop nuts to instrumental bolts, and sweat pours profusely from every pore. The stink of old breath and sweat mixed with oils, grease and desperation are an unwelcome but well known element to a dark ops deployment this far away from civilization. When you work to destabilize, steal and corrupt everything around you, the smell of fear is always nestled in your nose, and resting upon the back of your tongue so you can taste its fetid presence.

Part six: Ghost of the Dirty Starling.

This is not sustainable.

As much as we struggle with trying to keep a junior kindergartener on line for six hours a day, and a grade two student engaged and excited to learn, the thought of sending them back to school in person is keeping me up at night. On the plus side in another thirteen days my grade two will have developed her second dose immunity and could potentially go back – maybe. But we’ll be into July before my youngest can even have one dose, and mid August for her second, so I don’t know what to do about her. Sending her back to these unprotected, unguarded schools in total disarray seems more like a punishment than a service at this point. Yes she can be trying at times, aggravates me to no end, but I do not wish her dead, nor so severely ill as the affect her entire future. Seems like those of us with unvaccinated kindergartners (not for lack of trying or desire for it) will need to keep them separated from their friends until they turn five or the government health ministers lower the age for juvenile COVID-19 vaccinations.

However, I think that the return will be short lived as classes close down, or condense together and education stops or gets repeatedly interrupted and the whole lot just becomes a day camp of bored, sick disaffected youths bundled together watching friends and family get sick. Not a real high point for “mental health” champions. I don’t know about you but being lonely at home is preferable to watching my friends potentially getting so sick they die or are permanently injured in one way or another.

And where the fuck are all of the other party leaders here, surely 22 months in a coalition could have been formed to pressure the party of Doug Ford to actually put in place safety measures that count, or to spend the money they’ve been given by the federal government. Billions unspent, billions misplaced, disappearing ministers and a no show premiere. Doing Ontario proud there boys and girls.

No ambulances in some areas for anything what so ever. Reports of fire fighters calling taxis and Uber ride shares to send car accident victims to over crowded hospitals. What a fucking mess. I bet this tracks well with fans of his.

“And you’ve had a job before this one correct?”

“Yes, that’s true I worked at an aquatic zoo”.                                                                    “Is that like an aquarium?”                         “Oh, you know that term, I assumed that was just insider corporate jargon.”                              “No, no – that’s a fairly common term for water based fish conservation.”        “Hmmm. I respectfully disagree.”         “Well, can you tell me what lessons you learned working at the aquarium.”     “There you go, throwing that corporate jargon in my face. The fish zoo I worked at had several kinds of penguins and bottle nosed dolphins.”  “Ok,  do go on please.”  “Sure thing. Ah – the first piece of information is that penguins can be vicious. And dolphins like to engage in rape.”  “COUGH! – Goodness I wasn’t aware of that. How did you learn those things and what actions did you take because of it?”  “Yeah, ok, right. Well, what can I say – penguins can’t take a punch. And I don’t recommend retaliating against a dolphin by raping it with said stunned penguin. That’s for sure. No sir.”  “Wait – were, were you raped by a dolphin?” “To be fair… what do you know about lady dolphin vaginal secretions?” “Good lord , nothing. I don’t know anything about female dolphin vaginas.” “Count yourself lucky then doll. That shits like Valhalla. Only way there is to die in battle!” “What does dying have to do with dolphin vaginal secretions, vicious penguins and rape?” “Well skinny dipping in the tank and taking a dolphin dong in the bum will ruin your hole weak if you let it. Taking a short cut through the penguin exhibit nude is also not suggested.” “Jesus H Christ.” “Welp, the little bastards jumped up and bit me, so I punched it in the head. And even unconscious it was rigid which gim’me an idea, so I trekked back to the dolphin tank for a wrestle and to settle my score. You’d be amazed at how helpful an octopus can be when…” “Oh my, well I’m sorry to say that it has just come to my attention that the current supervisory position here at Little Tykes Nursery School has been filled. Good day to you sir.”