Only to awaken in a panic to find that you have in fact only slept in for five more minutes, and not the dreaded thirty plus. After several hours of sleep, those five minutes feel as though they should really help, but for me, they don’t. It just prolongs that heavy brain fog fugue state I get first thing in the morning. At least until I’m up and have peed, and walked about for a few moments. Not a fan of the late night urgency to pee that seems to be creeping up on me. I can have pretty restless sleep to begin with, so having to get up once, if not twice is even more exhausting. Zero stars, do not reccomend. The sheets and mattress thank me, but my body says, “sleep through the night more often you dumb lug“. The joys of aging I suppose.
Now that we’ve got kids, the ability to just lie in and totally whiff on the wake up call has mostly vanished. Which is for the best. No amount of sleep, at any point in the day, seems to leave me feeling refreshed. At all. I know I snore, so I wonder if there is some other sleep issue I have, or if the constant fatigue is just Crohn’s related. Could very well be. Oh well. I try not to read in bed at night anymore, or use my phone in bed, so that I can just go to sleep, and not think about those kinds of distractions. Helped at first, but the benefits seem to be waning, or have plateaued. Hard to tell the difference there. We all seem to acclimate to better circumstances really easily, and then get upset with the new, slightly better, but now baseline circumstances we are in. I don’t feel as though it is bad enough to warrant a clinical visit or trial at a sleep clinic. So there is that.
The kids have an assembly today, and my oldest has a speaking part in it. Looking forward to how it all turns out. We spent some time going over the lines earlier this week, and it was down pat. So the kid will do great, I’m sure of it! I may be only one of a few in a mask, but from the whispers I hear, looks as though masking will make a come back (at least in schools) come early next week, possibly to be announced on Monday. My family has been masking inside the whole time, so no change there. But it’ll be helpful all around, given the number of absences I saw this morning at drop off, for more families to follow suit – again. We all know it works, but won’t do so unless they absolutely have too. Weird flex, but ok. I’m on board with it for as long as it takes.
Today is Friday, November 11th, 2022. This month is starting to pick up speed! Vroom vroom mutha fuqars! Take care out there! Ciao Bella!
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